I have been motivated and enlightened by Pam's life.

Dear Ed, Betty, and Ben:

 

I've been wracking my brain for days since I heard about Pam to say the things that I have been feeling inside.  This last week has been one of the hardest I believe I have ever endured.  For as long as I can remember I see Pam in my life.  Since our families met when she, Ben, Brandon and I were all in elementary school to the last time I remember seeing her on her high school graduation day.  I remember thinking, "God, Pam has turned into such a lady."  ( I wish she would date my Brother- hahaha) Over the last few days I have been thinking about special times that I remember from our childhoods.  Summers and days after school spent at your house.  Fixing each others hair, playing house, sleepovers, birthday parties, Christmas holidays, going to the library ( we would always see who could read a book faster- she always beat me.)  Pam always had the ability to light up a room and to make friends with just about anyone she met.  She was never worried about being the most popular, but being the most genuine.  Even in childhood she posessed these qualities that so few adults will ever have. 

 

I was not a friend who knew Pam as a young adult in college.  My memories are rich with thoughts of our childhood.  I can however say that I was extremely touched and motivated by the life that she lead through her work with the church and her extreme faith and love for God and the world he created.  I have often questioned my own faith over the last year, but this week I have been so inspired, and I truly felt myself let go to accept all the feelings I was having.  I felt Pam's life influence my own as if to tell me it is o.k. to let down your guard, April and let Him in.  I know now I can lead my life as a better person having known the courage, strength, and fearlessness Pam possessed.  She truly has been a role model for me.

 

I know the days ahead are going to be difficult, and there are very few people that could ever understand what you all are feeling inside.  This is a hurt that is unimaginable for so many. My suggestion would be to let Pam's life lead your own. Open up and feel the world around you as she so obviously did.  Please take care!

 

Love,

April Evans Davala

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